It hits me like a ton of bricks.
The shame: it is overwhelming.
I hear the words that taste of
Disappointment, failure, what
A mess I have made. The blame.
The weight of it all is too much
To carry, I cannot breathe.
Stop with those looks, stop with
Those words, please, they are
Killing me. Your actions stay,
Haunting me through the night,
Leaving me restless, breathless,
Shaking, hurting, tormented,
Beyond what you could possibly
Believe from the smile I put on
To face every day. There is no
Confidence here, there is nothing
Left after you took it from me.
Robbed me with your words; they
Echo and resonate through me.
I cannot look at myself, anymore.
You have made me not want to be
Me, you have made me ashamed.
I do not wish to be here, I feel a
Need to escape, run away, flee.
Anyway I can, I need to leave,
Because I am suffocating here.
How can you expect one person
To carry your downfalls? – your
Judgemental ways and cruel words,
Why do you give them to me?
I try to throw them away but it
All stays until there is nothing left
But blame and shame.