I am not saying it is the right or even a good way to be, but I do not do small talk. It bores me quickly. Gossip is common in human conversation. I want to go further, deeper. I like silent moments after intense sentences or full blown discussions and arguments. My silence is welcoming, friendly. You can question me. Sometimes, I am removed, but I am never gone. Ask and I will be as honest as possible in that particular moment. I do get sucked in by my thoughts and my internal world. Maybe far too much, but I am open to anything and everything.
As you can imagine, my time is usually spent staring up at a sky, deep in thought. I want people who can gaze with me or enjoy a silent moment. I want those who will not look bizarrely at you when you want to talk about the simple, naturally occurring things for a while, almost as though they are humans you interact with. That is how I feel about the world. I enjoy it in a unique way. It does not bother me who comes in and out of my life as long as they adapt to this, to me. I am ever-changing. I will not apologise for being me. I owe no explanations, but if you are patient, I will give them.
Honestly, I am special. I will not forget that. I have been told enough times that it is wrong or abnormal, but who told you there was such a thing as normal? I will continue in my abnormality for the rest of my life.